So, I've been trying to sleep for a while and I read somewhere that if you don't fall asleep within 5-10 minutes of laying down, you should get up and do something boring. Well, my problem is that I keep thinking. This is one of those times where my brain just won't just itself down and stop bothering me. At first, I was thinking about my room at home and what it will be like to have a loft bed instead of a normal bed like I've had my entire life. Then I remembered the times when there have been spiders on my ceiling and I'm terrified of spiders. With a loft bed I'll be very close to the ceiling and possibly those dreadful spiders. That though put the image of spiders in my head which made it impossible for me to keep my eyes closed, so forget falling asleep.
I then thought about my experience here at college. I thought I would come here, live with my best friend and become semi-friends with my two other roommates. Boy was I wrong. Our roommates made it really difficult for my best friend to live in this room and I was going to move out with her except I had this feeling that our new roommate would be worse so I went with the old saying, "Better the evil you know that the evil you don't know" or something like that. Turns out me staying here was better than moving because her new roommate is horrible and confrontational at that. After my friend moved out, I thought things got better but I was wrong again, they still refuse to talk to me other than "I'm turning the lights off." Which of course doesn't give me much of an option. C pretty well seems to strongly dislike me, for instance, she always seems to be mad when I'm around and slamming doors. It's pretty childish and stupid. I think she was mad that I was occupying her futon in the living room, but she brought it here and that means that everyone in the room should be able to use it, not just her and E. Plus I wanted to watch TV since normally I don't get to. Though normally I'm not here very much but I had to stay here this weekend so TV and studying for finals it was. I just don't understand and probably never will understand why they don't like me and why they didn't like Nina. It just doesn't make sense, they didn't try to be friendly or get to know us. Everyone I talk to doesn't get it either. So I'm stumped. Anyways, I get to leave here (and them) on Thursday afternoon and I don't ever have to come back. I think I've been slightly depressed since I came here because I miss Eric and I miss home and with my roommates the way they are, they make me want to leave even more. Only four more days. I can handle that. The majority of my stuff is packed and the rest will be packed by Thursday before my exam at 2.
Speaking of exams, I'm really nervous for some reason. I'm glad my 'exams' tomorrow are basically just me picking up my portfolio and project. I hope I get a good grade on them, I actually tried really hard on my drawing portfolio and my photography assignment seemed to be good to me. Maybe not as creative as others but I'm not a super creative person. Oh well. Tuesday I have my supposed to be easy BIS 100 exam, Wed is Math which is going to be interesting, since I sometimes freeze up on math exams and tests when I don't know the info that well. Thursday is my last one, Art 126, which I think I have a pretty good handle on if I just look at the review once a day I believe I'll do fine. I can do this. I can ace these exams. I believe in myself.
Other thoughts that come to mind are that I bought 3 baby trees for Christmas today. They're only like 10" tall and cute a button. I adore them. Next, I got a 'new' and when I say new I mean new to me, car! Its a 02 Ford Focus, silver, manual trans. I love it. Hopefully, when the mechanic puts the new clutch in it, he doesn't find a whole bunch of stuff wrong with it and he fixes it fast so I can clean it and get it legal to drive. I have had the crappiest car now for 4 years. I love my car but it's also falling apart, like currently it needs a strut, a windshield, and a new exhaust pipe that goes from basically the engine to the muffler. It's a 91' Escort that I got when my nephew went into the Marine Corp. My sister gave it to me so I don't complain much, its pretty cheap to run and drives amazingly, it should looks and sounds badly. Oh well, that's pretty well behind me now. I have a new one and I love it.
Well I believe that is all for now, hopefully, I can get to sleep soon. I don't really need to be up until noon or so but getting up early is good for the mind. Keeps me sharp and awake through the day. Thanks for reading =]